THANK YOU!

So as you can see, I had a bad day yesterday! I just wanted to thank all of my friends and family members that commented and wrote me emails. It really helped motivate me to want this more. I know I'm being extremely selfish. I want to finish this through the end, so I'm not calling it quits just yet! I stepped on the scale this morning (I try not to, but so tempting) and I was down another pound. I hope that keeps me motivated the rest of the week!

Throwing in the towel

Seriously, I am so over dieting. It is making me angry and I don't want to be angry. I lost a big fat 0 this week and I'm seriously pissed about it. I hate that I'm fat. I hate that I've lost nearly 30 pounds and I'm still fat. I have no body but myself to make me lose this weight. I have 3 little kids that need my constant attention all day long and the last thing I want to do at the end of the day is 60 minutes on the elliptical. I HATE watching what I eat and not being able to go up to the fridge on a bad day and eat what I want. I'm seriously thinking that this is my permanent weight forever.

-2

I don't have a lot to say. I've been in a super bad mood all weekend. I'm glad I had a loss, I was expecting to gain or stay even. The heat was brutal this week. I HATE making excuses. It was literally 99 degrees in my house one night. I would have gone to the ER if I would have worked out in that. Anyway, I'm not looking forward to my birthday tomorrow. I feel old and fat.